Sometime in the past a boy was able to take the happy me and turn me into someone who believed she was completely worthless. After so long of pretending what happened to me was my fault and locking the memory up, I finally feel like I can talk about it. I don’t feel guilty or ashamed, what he did to me wasn’t my fault. Day by day I’m growing stronger and feeling happy again.
"Funny girls like you don’t get boyfriends. Funny girls like you get boys who are friends who want to date your boring pretty friends but also have you around to make them laugh."
"falling in love will simultaneously be the best and worst thing to happen to you. i’d say i don’t recommend falling in love because your life becomes this twisted kind of hell that you enjoy as if you were in heaven but you’re still burning in the pits of it, so you know it’s hell, but falling in love isn’t something you choose to do. you’re just sucked in by whomever you fall in love with. you’re sucked in by the way their mouth moves when they talk and how the corners of their mouth spread when they smile and how their eyes shift to the left when they’re telling a story or how they shift to the right when you know they’re lying. you’re sucked in by the way their face lights up when they talk about what they’re passionate about and how they eyebrows furrow when they’re angry or upset. you’re sucked in by the way their hands touch their face, whether they’re thinking or they’re embarrassed. you’re just sucked into this fiery pit of wanting someone for their innocence. for their humanness. you admire it when you’re near them and you long for it when you’re apart. every waking thought you have will include them, every dream you have will include them, every conversation you have will include them and there’s nothing you can do to stop yourself. there’s nothing you can do once you fall in love and there’s nothing you can do once they decided they’ve fallen out."
“write about falling in love” (via depresant
I want so badly for something good to happen in my life. Like maybe someone will for once fall for me, I will take a perfect selfie or win a million dollars.